I hope this doesn't ramble on. As you can see it's 3:30am, it's called, "nighttime effects of cancer-don't plan on sleeping!" Anyway that may be my personal effect. It's always a learning experience when you go to your chemo appt. You're in a large room with 12 other patients, all sitting in comfy lounge chairs arranged in a semi-circle, very close together. You can truly reach out and touch your neighbor! Each patient is plugged in to their specific medications.
I've been in this large room 3 times now. No one has puked, or the more correct word, vomited, or dry heaved. This was my biggest misconception about chemotherapy, I just assumed everyone would be so sick and vomiting. The semi-circle setting would be a poor arrangement indeed if that were the case!
My visits take 4 hours from start to finish (what to do in a lounge chair for 4 hours)? My last 2 visits I decided to get to know my neighbors and other semicircle participants, soon to be called friends. Everyone has their unique story. I used to feel sad, maybe even pity looking at a woman who had lost her hair because I assumed they must be in cancer treatment. Now my thoughts and actions will be to congratulate her for being a brave fighter in a battle that no one would enlist in.
Next Wed., Aug.3 is my CT scan to see what the treatment has done during the past 6 weeks. I will tell you that I am already anxious about this procedure, even though I know it will do no good to worry because I cannot change the outcome. Please know that I have felt your support, love, and prayers.
I did ramble, sorry. Please know I've gained much strength from your comments.
Keep positive thoughts. I know it is hard not to worry! I'll have to come and distract you! Let our prayers and love buoy you up.
ReplyDeleteLove you!
Melanie
PS: Next time you are up at 3:30 call me. I'm usually awake at that time too!
ReplyDeleteIt was so great to see you the other day. You are truly amazing and I am so proud of how you are fighting and staying positive. I miss you and hope you can come back to work soon. Luv ya!! :o)
ReplyDeleteI loved your comment about looking at a woman without hair differently now...I will do the same. I loved the way you worded the "congratulate her for being a brave fighter in a battle that no one would enlist in." I've never thought of it that way but it's so true!
ReplyDeleteHi Kandace,
ReplyDeleteI really don't think any of my comments have posted but I am trying again. It is so comforting to read your blog. I am amazed how far you have come. I know you have suffered alot, but what a reward so far. I pray for you night and day. I wish I could do more. I'd even take a chemo for you if I could. I'm anxious to hear the results of your cat scan, the results would have to be much better, or you wouldn't be where you are today. Love You! Ruth.